Maybe I AM Weak

Blog Post #2

I will be introducing a little bit about myself every post. Here is my disclaimer this is my Truth!! I hope by the end of this that you find yourself near to God. Although this is my truth I hope his truth is weaved within the words of this text. So let’s be clear Jesus is the only reason why I’m still here. Only Jesus has given me the courage to take heart and find faith and hope.

So by now, you are thinking girl what’s up with that title. I’m going to get there I promise. When I think about the word WEAK a few things come to mind like the SWV song. Well also, the Sunday Service Choir made the song over which is kind of weird for me but I digress. But when you think about those songs for some it will invoke feelings of nostalgia, love, or memories. Or just good vibes as some would say. Then I think about all the times I did things in a moment of weaknesses. The feelings of guilt or conviction that followed the acts of weakness. Then it was all the times I was bullied as a child and didn’t stand up for myself and I felt WEAK. Or some younger people use the word WEAK as slag it never stuck for me LOL. Or maybe I am too old to use that word. How can I forget that game show I can’t remember the name but I remember the phrase that they would say you are the weakest link goodbye.

Out of all my life experiences, I recall the time in college I was being indecisive about being in a sorority and our leader expressed(I don’t remember what they are called in the title) that I was WEAK. Those words hit like a ton of bricks. But unfortunately, I believe them to be true already. I had been thought that about myself so it was easy for that person to say that and I accept it. I thought about all of my examples of WEAK rather experience, my culture, or silly. Rather most invoke a negative response. But being WEAK is not always bad.

Recently I was watching the Last Dance a documentary on the Bulls on ESPN. Micheal Jordon had broken a bone in his ankle and without the knowledge of the Bulls organization, he slowly worked his way to healing and playing again. When he came back and was examined by the Bulls team it was determined his injured leg where he sustained his ankle injury was stronger than non-injury sustained leg.

You maybe wondering what does this has to do with anything? Well, are you willing to be WEAK to build endurance? Can you be WEAK and still run the race? Can you take your weakness and allow it to build resilience in you? Those questions can be answered several ways but let’s dive into what it means to have a weakness to gain strength spiritually. In 2 Corinthians 12 Paul the writer of the text discusses having a thorn sent from Satan to torment him and he asked God to please take it away and the response from God is “my grace is sufficient(enough) for thee for my strength is made perfect (means completed in Latin) in weakness”. Here is a break down of the text from the AMP Bible.

“Because of the surpassing greatness and extraordinary nature of the revelations [which I received from God], for this reason, to keep me from thinking of myself as important, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan, to torment and harass me—to keep me from exalting myself! Concerning this I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might leave me; but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].”

2 Corinthians 12:7-10 AMP

See I am willing to be weak and broken with the Lord. When you are in a place of brokenness and willing to cry out Jesus can truly take over. Jesus will make you new. (2 Corinthians 5:17) So yeah maybe I am weak but my weakness equals strength and power in my life in the natural things. It means I can grow stronger to take up for myself and have true power through Christ.

I bet there were times you felt WEAK or like the UNDERDOG. People thought you were the weak link or maybe you thought you were the weak link. I had plenty of experiences like that. Recently I was talking to a friend about experiences in childhood and college regarding education. Once I was in a college course and the instructor was so weird. She followed me during any group work and would make odd remarks to me personally. Well, one day during office hours she said she could tell I came from an urban area from my grammar. I wanted to leave college that day. I battled with the feelings of feeling less than my peers already because I knew I received a less than a optimum education. Somehow I told my advisor and she called her. She put her in her place in a respectable way. Just like that day, Jesus will fight your battles as an advocate. But so often I learned you must fight your own battles too. Don’t be afraid to stand up for what is right and for yourself. You have a purpose and a plan. Just like David the shepherd boy you must slay Goliath so you can become the King. But remember don’t go and sleep with your best friend’s wife and kill him in a battle to cover up your sin. We don’t got time for that type of weakness.

So I will leave you with this maybe I am weak for Christ but not in my flesh. A definition for the word weak is “not able to resist external force or withstand attack”. So if or when your flesh is WEAK you are unable to withstand attack. When his strength is made perfect in us we can withstand the attack. Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. Matthew 26:41